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LJ Idol 04.09: "My Scars"

the scars where my hands were
bruised and bleeding
on that cold September day
thrust through glass
trying to be cool

the scars where my forearms were
twin lines of blood
drawn on that warm summer day
rebar and concrete is fun to look at
but not to play in

the scar where my chin was
secondhand bike tossed me through
the cool spring day;
hauling myself home, bleeding
greeted with mother's callous cry
"don't get blood on the carpet!"

the scar where my head was
the growing gray shorn from me
on that frigid winter day
scars inside me;
scars I'll never remember
scars marking me forever.

digging deeper;
the scars where my heart was
scars I've gotten,
scars I've given
they've all left their marks,
a latticework blanket
a lens through which
I still wonder at what I am.

Now I look back
I look down at myself
and I realize:

I am nothing without my scars
I am nothing without my scars

I am nothing if not my scars.
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