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About this person. Hm, and me just discovering myself, perhaps for the first time ... like ever, maybe.

Right now I feel like I'm in flux. Walls are coming down around me, things are changing. It's odd, it's chaotic, but it's me, and I like it.

rhianwyn is my wife ... well, she's not, but we refer to each other that way, and in affiars of the heart, the heart is what matters. And not some piece of paper that entitles you to benefits and other legal tomfooleries.

I've been writing for about 22 years, and have a stack of journals about as long as your arm (assuming you're not some kind of alien, that is). Nowadays I do most of my writing on the computer; it's a lot faster that way. Much of my writing takes the form of poetry. Time was when I could crank out 4-6 poems a day, but now I'm lucky if I get that many in a month. I might not post every day in LJ, but I do comment every day.

I'm drawing more and more. I'm scared of it, I'm scared of success, and sometimes I'm scared of myself. But like the song says, I don't want to live like my mother. I don't want to let fear rule my life. And I'm not going to.

I'm a father, of a precocious young one, four years old and going on thirty. She's very cute; daddy's buying a shotgun with his first sale. "So ya wanna date my daughter? Commere boy, we got some talkin' ta do!"

I have a largely unpronounceable last name. So I don't give it out a lot, as I almost i8nvariably get some idiot looking at me quizzically, stumbling over its pronunciation. It's not difficult, people, really.

I'm a pagan, somewhat druidic by bent. I hear animals and I talk to trees. I don't practise much, as my area is full of pretentious fucktard pagans who think they know everything. And I'm not keen on doing things by myself. So I don't.

I was on the Internet betore being on the internet was "cool." I was on before LJ, before the Web, before MMORPGs. Remember 'bangs' in your email address? I did that. So yeah, I'm a geek too -- a computer geek, a comic book nerd, a writing dork, and so on. I love Lord of the Rings, both the books and the movies. I think pale skin is the best. I love glasses on women.

I feel music, too. Certain pieces make me cry. It's wonderful. I'm an Adult Indigo. It colours everything I am, everything I do. I suffered abuse as a child -- so what? It wasn't physical; it was emotional, it was neglectful, it was "artist abuse," which is why I say I'm discovering myself now, perhaps for the first time. And I can't thank rhianwyn enough for her help.

I'm opinionated and not afraid to say what it is I have to say. So deal. That said, I also think that if one doesn't have anything nice to say, one shouldn't say anything at all. So I try (and often fail) to be diplomatic. But I'm a double Aries with an insane amount of Fire in my chart, so that doesn't work a lot of the time.

If you like what you read, feel free to add me as a friend! I love meeting new people. I don't always notice if people add me, or don't add me, though, and I don't use this as an indicator of my self-worth (nor should you) -- so I might not add you back.


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